tonite is the 19th of August, a month and a week since the nite me and Chance have hooked up... things have been goin well... but tonite i'm madd at him... he doesn't kno that tho.... itz too early for this shit.... i'm trying not to be madd but i am.... and I refuse to call him or check mah myspace messages.... I mean he has been doin a good job of makin me happy but itz all been on his terms... and i don't like that shit... he wants me to do things for him (not spend money or nothin) but do shit, but when i need him available for me.... blah..blah..blah.. I'm just pissed... maybe i'm over reacting... Ok, here's the situation: We talked on hmm.. I want to say wednesday; he wanted me to come through because Lil' gutta (his homeboy) and him needed to take pictures for their album covers... So i was like no problem, I don't mind doin that.... what day i say.. he said Sunday... i said No.. Buses don't run on sunday... How bought saturday... HE SAID Saturday was cool.. Itz set... so i thought... then friday comes i call, i'm like "what time u want me to come tomorrow," he's like "baby tomorrow is Saturday"... UMMM DUH!!! he was like " I thought u said u was comin on Sunday" HOW NICCA?? buses DON'T RUN ON SUNDAY!!! that shit pissed me off... i was like "are u gonna come pic me up then??" ... silence..." No, I didn't think so" he asked me could mah dad drop me off like last time... i don't like askin mah dad for rides mainly because he ain't gon do it... he gon' tell me i'm lyin... I AIN'T LYIN...WHY LIE? if mah dad could drop me off, there would be no problem.. i'd be there... he want shit when he want it and not earlier or later... i guess people are like that... but i'm flexible.. ya kno... I'm willin to bend a little but I ain't finna bust cartwheels and backflips for him... He gon be lookin for me though over the week... that shit pissed me off and I ain't gon be here next weekend so he gon have to wait... because mah life don't stop for him just like his don't stop for me... I be kickin it wit the homies or whatnot don't get it twisted... but we are suppose to have our us time and we managed to get it to once a week and if we missed that then its like ?????? uh ???? ya kno? ......... I DUNNO... maybe i'm trippin again.... I jus miss mah baby and I'm frustrated... he said he missed me too... but obviously not as much... or not at all... ooooooooooh let me go.... because this ventin' ain't workin....