I AM LOST I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON LATELY...I HAVE BEEN SO UNFOCUSED ITS REALLY RIDICULOUS....I LET MYSELF GET OFF TRACK....I DON'T THINK I'M COUGHT UP BUT I FEEL COUGHT UP...???...DOESN'T THAT JUST READ BADLY??? IT DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE BUT THAT IS TRULY HOW I FEEL...MY GRADES ARE LOW AND I FORGET TO BE PRESENT FOR AN IMPORTANT EVENT WITH ASB....THAT'S NOT GOOD....MY PRIORITIES ARE ALL MIXED UP....SOME PEOPLE SAY I NEED TO GET LAID TO PUT IT NICELY....I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS...I'VE BEEN ON NIH&&A'S CONSTANTLY....NOT LITERATELY ON THEM...BUT THEY'VE BEEN ON MY MIND....DIFFERENT ONE'S .....ITS LIKE I'VE GONE BOY CRAZY.....I WAS HAPPY WITH MYSELF AT ONE POINT AND NOW I'M JUST .....UGH....YOU KNOW, WHEN I WASN'T TRYING TO LOOK CUTE I LOOKED CUTE OR DESCENT EVERYDAY...NOW THAT I AM TRYING TO GET ATTENTION, I'M FINDING A PROBLEM WITH EVERYTHING I DO AND WEAR....HERE I GO TRYING TO CHANGE MYSELF AGAIN.... IT THOUGHT I WAS THROUGH WITH THAT....I GUESS ITS NEVER REALLY OVER UNTIL I GET WHAT I WANT.....I'M GONNA END UP DESTROYING MYSELF IF THIS KEEPS UP....I'M MY OWN WORSE ENEMY....THAT'S BAD...ESPECIALLY WHEN I KNOW THAT AND I FEEL POWERLESS....LORD PLEASE SAVE ME FROM ME....I'M IN THE MIST OF INSANITY, WALKING AROUND LIKE EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT... I WANT TO SCREAM......BUT I CAN'T....BECAUSE PEOPLE WILL WANT TO KNOW WHY, AND I DON'T FEEL LIKE ANSWERING ANY QUESTIONS....I DON'T WANT TO BE THE ONE BEING EVALUATED ANYMORE....SO AS FAR AS PEOPLE ARE CONCERNED... I GOT A GOOD HEAD ON MY SHOULDERS AND I'M DOING BIG THINGS.... SECRETLY I'M BREAKING DOWN....AND I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL AT THIS POINT AND TIME....I REALLY NEED HELP.

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