i know it's been a while since my last entry but, i guess i have been to ashamed to admit my true feelings about what's been going on lately, even to myself. yeah pretty much me and anthony aren't together anymore... but that's not the worse part... that little boy lied to me and played me like nintendo. first with his age swearing til the cows come home that he was turning 18 but he was really turning 17. OMG right? no... this next one is OMG... then this little boy took his little ass around the hood...the flatz... and told everyone he didn't go with me...he didn't ask me out... i'm blowin up his chirp and his friends phone... yada yada bullshit...AND he called me a bitch... EVIL...right??? i couldn't believe my ears.... 1st of all how i'mma blow up somethin that ain't on, and 2nd i told him from jump i wasn't gonna be callin his friend like that because i didn't really feel comfortable using him as an answerin machine.... i was hurt.... but i was more pissed.... he used me and he didn't have to. all that shit he did wasn't even fuckin neccessary.... i mean what the hell did he get out of it?? A BIRTHDAY GIFT????? um....NEWS FLASH, SMARTASS.... all my friends get gifts from me that wasn't something i did especially just for you... i already thought he was a cool cat and it was cool when we were just friends and he would of gotten a gift regardless. but this muthafucka call himself bein smart and askin me out...lol... it's kinda funny now that i think about it because he basically called himself pimpin me... but how? he didn't get nothin else. he cut his rope too early... i mean, if i was gon' pimp a bitch, i wouldn't of told someone who knows her THAT early in my game, shit.. thatz slippin on my pimpin... i would of got a lot of shit out that bitch, some kickz, some clothes, .... shit a phone... bein real.... i woulda worked that shit and said nada to no one until I got bored... but its all good tho...becuz karma iz a bitch... do you kno there was a bank error in my favor and i got $105 for no reason shortly after i found out what he did? thatz more than i paid for his gift thatz for dayum sure. so i ain't even mad at him no more... he ruined my rep with a bunch of people who mean nothing to me simply because i don't kno them... and they don't kno me....AND they're all younger than me so... i'm not tryna be rude because they might be some really nice kids but....WHO GIVES A FUCK!!!!! i'm glad i got that off my chest, i feel good now... prepared for another day.... regardless of anyone's bullshit i'mma stay the nice person that i am, i shouldn't trust as much, but it's all good... people who try to use me will get their's, trust... GOD IS GOOD!