hey, it's me i guess i'll tell you about my day. well today i went over Chance's house (Chance is this new guy i met) anyway i went over his house today it was cool and what not we watched movies and such. I enjoyed being his company. But i was talking to my friend today and i felt she was being negative but chances are, she was right. She said that everytime i get a little bit of attention i get all lap happy... she's right, i do, i can't help it, i want to believe that every guy that tries to talk to me is being genuine. I can't keep doing this to myself, because i am hurting meyself, you know. So far Chance is a nice guy, but so was Anthony, he was soooooo sweet and he turned out to be such an asssssssssssshole. WHY ME?!?!?!?!?!?! i put my feelings into everything i do so quickly and i end up being dropped where i stand. well i can't do that, i have to carefully watch every step i take with this guy, carefully think and plan everything i say, because i don't want to be mean to a guy because it pushes him away but i don't have to be all extra nice either because he'll do is walk over me. I just need to stay me with a little twist. instead of me stressin over niggas, let them stress over me... and don't give them SHIT no matter how much i'm tempted.... i need to learn how to play the game and there is no better way to learn than "hands on experience." Ya feel me? I knew you would....gone.
